F*CK YEAH! EVAN MAKEBA!: Today was an me day. So after going to an parlour and playing there... I felt... Meh. Then I went home, played on my PlayStation, drank and tried talking to as many #sexualpositive people as were around. I think I get it now. I want scenes with #chemistry. It's like working doing acting when there's some fellow actors you just click with. It's an similar thing what I want with play mates. But some still are programmed to do monogamy and that's okay until I worry there would come a time they would make me choose and at this point I would have to choose being completely single. Reading the intro of an new book and that saying #monogamy runs the risk of suppressing #sexual desires until ultimately both decide to split. I honestly doubt there is such thing as an perfect partner. IMO a time will come when sure. Emotionally, physically... They are all you need but it's like an video game. You can only enjoy the same kind of #sex for so long. Siiiiiigh on the other side of this... I'm greedy. I want more #relationships with more women with different chemistries. But O Lordy lord lord I have no idea how to connect and when to jump on the ladies I like. And yes. I probably would go back to an massage parlour. Maybe even an #escort. #aspielife #poly #socialskill #attraction