F*CK YEAH! EVAN MAKEBA!: I know what some of you are thinking; he’s gone back to his old #depressing self and he’s gonna bring my mood down. Sorry, not sorry. I instagram to; perv on attractive profiles, perv on friends I secretly fancy, affirmate things I think will make me happy (lots of money and stupidly expensive stuff) and to interact with like minded people. Yesterday was meant to be so exciting but there were a number of things which went wrong and some were my #autism ‘s fault and some was #anxiety ‘s fault. I went through periods of hating myself (I actually googled drug overdose on my #antidepressants) because right now... I’m fed up. Im hanging on a very thin thread of things will change but I need a sign and probably more 😭😭😭 my eyes are watering again... I need more understanding friends. My family member could die any day, my dad probably won’t talk to me if I can’t get things in terms of self employment going and my life needs help in so many ways... I don’t know what to do or how to ask for help!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Please love me!!