F*CK YEAH! EVAN MAKEBA!: Soooooo recently I've double guessed or hidden things. Either catch going back to a play event, realising for some people play means different things or afraid people judge on face value. The truth is sometimes I can get extremely dark and gloomy. Other times I can be quiet and other times I want to fuck as many friends as possible. I'm so different that i'm afraid my difference will frighten those who do think differently so much that I scare them. I scare myself sometimes. Particularly with the kind of work/projects I want to do. What i'm saying is its #sparkle an play event and carefree and #kinky and thanks to my recent fuck ups... I'm afraid to go out again. I fear anyone I meet or fancy this weekend is pointless as I'm an #polyamory #aspie who wants to create #art of #murder, #suicide and pop culture in an dark #surreal way. My ideas are fucked Up. I dunno if I'll ever meet anyone who wants to work with me. Let alone be in a room, fuck me in a FwB kinda of way. #rant